Friday, August 9, 2013

False Memories

I am listening to Passion Pit's Manners. It's a wonderful album. A sugar rush of energy and throwback yet modern 80's sounds. It came out in 2008, but I didn't discover it until 2009 or 2010. It kept popping up on my Pandora stations and I couldn't help but love it. So I bought it and I have listened to it a lot in the last 4+ years. Yet, the odd thing is I feel like I have been listening to it for a much longer time. As if I had heard them and loved them during my college years. It would have been a perfect album on the long-distance trips from Indiana to Ohio, or my various other explorations through middle of nowhere farmland. I can even imagine these songs soundtracking my high school years, though I don't think their poppiness would have sat well with the angst-ridden teen I was. These things never happened though. I've never gone on a road trip as a (relatively) carefree young adult with this album playing. I never heard it blasting out of the speakers at a teenage house party when the parents were away. Mostly I have just listened to it while doing data-entry as a (relatively) full of cares adult. I'm sure these false memories have  to do with the throwback sounds I get from it. But I really do feel like I am rewiring my brain to think that these things actually happened. A form of wishful thinking. "This would have been the perfect college album if it had come out during my college years!" "This is a great song for my teenage bash!"

I wonder if in 20-30 years as I move into and out of middle-age will I have forgotten reality? Will I have a gilded memory of something that never occurred? Will it really matter?

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